Saturday, September 01, 2007 ; 1:54 PMY
I really wish you were here.
It's someting predictable, but yet I still feel the hurt in there.
I guess there're more than meets the eye that surprised me, by a whole lot actually.
But what can I do? No matter whether it's my assumptions (which basically is not), or they're real but they've passed. It doesn't matter I think.
Ha, he just called to continue to deny all of these are true. Wells, he's taught me once that a guy will not admit to his 'adultery' no matter how you press him to. Moreover, I din press anything, so all the more I won't get the truth. Who cares neways, back to myself, I trust what I saw and feel.
He'll not call again, that's almost for sure. And I pray that he won't. So I'll continue to tell myself that I've made the right choice, and my heart will not soften abit ever again.
Even whilst our status were 'friends', we had several arguements and quarrels, let alone being 'attached' together. So like what my baobei said, "What's the difference?"
Recalling what I saw, it still sends the chill down my spine. He's so scary, so sneaky and so everything negative. His sister was asking me yesterday, "I really have no idea what you see in him. Just look at his disgusting figure, just look at the disgusting hair he's grown, look at the horrible tattoos. Look at his attitude. And how disgusting he is, to share food with dogs and snatching hamsters' food, saying that they're tasty! Only his face. ONLY his face you're interested in him? HAIYO!"
Ha. Even his own sister say such thing of him.
I'm not putting the blame on her to lemme think thru what I really see in him. It's not the physical appearance, really, I've been together with the most undesirable guy in the world. It's really the attitude and all. But he's none. Apart from how nice and wonderful he has TREATED me in the past, I can't find any reason to stay anymore.
He's sick in the mind, he does things that are beyond what human does, he's violent. Hurr.
I feel so mean larhx. Nevermind.
My gastric, ouch. Pain larhx.
Many people fell sick. Tsk, must take care wor. The weather sucks and everything.
Yupps.
I'll update again. Not in the mood now.
