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I'm having more pimples coming up. And one super huge one, making me having a bad headache, on my forehead. Roars.
I hate my face now.

ANYWAYS.
Zouk's photos up. Enjoy! ~ (=
The Us, At Zouk (=
The Guys..
And The Ladies...

The Front Views Of these two self-lover. lol
And the Act Cool View.
Chris And Mee.
The Ladies in the Ladies.
Steffie loves Joycey. She doesnt love me anymores.. )=
yupps, thats abt it. (=

Your Birthdate: September 30

You have the type of personality that people either love or hate. You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken. And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted. Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved. Your strength: Your flair Your weakness: If you think it, you say it Your power color: Scarlet red Your power symbol: Inverted triangle Your power month: March

i dont wanna have this heartache over and over and over again.

The tears are always kept back. And soon after i'd have to hold them back. You know how difficult it is?

And i refuse to rant it here, cuz i want pple who read my blog close this window with a smile.

wells, Zouk was tiring, but all in all was rather fun (: thanks loads peeps.

photos will be up soon.

So long.

Sometimes i just wanna give up and say, " Fuck You larhx!" But like any other women, i'd think of every aspects, and think of every possible consequences upon that. Thus, i din do it.

Wells, ugly things aside.

The really very late photos. Last wednesday's zouk.

At MRT before Zouk


the three lovely ladies (:

Thighs' muscles aching.
Calves' muscles aching.

Okay how useless can i get?
Well at least i could walk up and down the stairs.

When i had dancing a few years back, i felt pain even walking down the stairs. hoho.

A mystery shopper in the afternoon.
T****op should really improve in the designs of their clothes. They look almost like my grandmother's style. Making their price not worth it. yar lorhx. But service was superb. (: thumbs up!

Dor****P***ins was a disaster in the service. Complete disaster. But the clothes were great! (= I wanna buy~~ ):

Neways..

A jogger in the evening.. I'm weak. *raises hands. and admit. it was perfectly alright for me to start off with that speed in the past (like a few years back). But i was pating after less than 1km, or maybe lesser than 500m. SOBS.I felt like puking and was having stomach discomfort after the run which was only approx 2km. SIGHS. E
veryweek, i should jog.

A project worker in the night. Was so freaking pissed that as i was updating my blog halfway, the internet connection just POOF, gone. so i went to do my project on mic word, then i realized that i couldnt send it over to my mate.
Bloody. then i realized that I THINK i did it wrongly, then i redid it. and the internet is still, ROARS.

Finally, when everything was sent.. then the internet doesnt go crazy. And guess what, i'm typing now, talking bad about the internet/laptop, it disconnected my internet access again. urghx! I've to transfer to the comp.

Till then~

Maybe i should just scratch the previous post. I was too frustrated that i couldnt fall asleep i guess. Sighs, and maybe really, the hurt is repetitively coming on, the scar is getting deeper and deeper. That resulted in that post bahx.

Sometimes i really wonder whether it's retribution to what i were in the past, resulting in all these. Or is it just meant to be like that. And i really mean in every areas of my life, nothing seems to be very smooth.

Many atimes i will imagine, what if i am who i were in the past, what will the outcomes of all these situations/incidents/whatever, be?

I've chosen to keep mum and heck care, like i was never before.
But sometimes it hurts my pride so much, i dont know how long i will be able to take it.
There's a limit to everything. Sighs.
Is there a use of saying so much? It isnt gonna make any difference anyways. *shrugs.

SLEEPY. Darn sleepy. Goodnights readers. I LOVE U. (: ♥

i really couldnt take it.

I dont care if this post is gonna sound rubbishly sad or demoralizing or whatsoever.
I just wanna type.

It has been freaking long since i cried like that. YES, i'm crying. I have no idea why.

At a freaky time of 5am.

I'm using up the tissues like no one's business.

I won't mind if i were to recieve more flowers after this.
I don't care if i'm gonna get killed writing this.
Wells, i'd prefer to be killed right at this moment.

I fucking feel like spitting my heart out now so I will not let my heart get in the way and make me feel this way.

Once upon a time, there lived a girl, who is sad, but not so sad, but still not very happy. She had alot of things to worry about, things which she thinks she should not be worrying, but she's worrying for. The people around her did not know her troubles.




and then one fine day.. ZAI, The Great, made this girl's day.



"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are grey. You never know dear how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away."



How can one not smile and get perked up?SMILES!!

To all the people who are sad, crying, sobbing, or whatever, know that there's a rainbow after every rain, and a sunshine behind the rain! (= SO SMILE!! *MUACKS.



(Note: Pictures are taken not by professionals, so dont hiam too much. =p)

a smile leads to a laugh


...a laugh leads to a high 5


...a high 5 leads to a hug


...a hug leads to a kiss


...a kiss leads 2 makeout


...a makeout leads 2 finger


...a finger leads to a hand


...a hand leads to a lick


...a lick leads to a suck



...a suck leads 2 a .........


So tell me how many people are you
gonna smile
at after you heard this cuz sex is
like math.


...u add the bed




...subtract the clothes


...divide the legs


...leave your solution



...and pray you dont multiply!

Hello Blog, Do you miss me? Cause I do. LOL. I'm alil not in the right state of mind. Pardon me, will you. (:

I've got projects in hand. But i'm not starting on them. Bloody Hell, have no idea what's wrong with me. There's one that needa be handed in like on Tuesday. Well done Maine. I think I haven't recovered from the holiday mood. (=Nua-ing day in and out) HAHA.

WAKE UP
WAKE UP
WAKE UP
WAKE UP
WAKE UP
WAKE UP
WAKE UP

Phew. I'm still lying on bed, chatting on msn, typing this and awaiting for the time to turn in.

Darn.

But at least, i really wanted to start on my BIS project this afternoon, the mood was present. But how sad, I couldnt find the frontpage program. SIGHS. I thought it comes with Microsoft Office. sheeshhh. I was so enthusiastic and confident that i can finish the page by today, yet I couldnt find the program to download as well. My dreamweaver expired too, and undownloadable adi. SIGHS.

Maybe thats what brought down my mood to projects. SIGHS.

Lets talk abt something else then.

Erms.

I went Pasar Malam today. (: The food wasnt nice, i dont know why. Pasar Malam's food has always been loves to me. But not rather suitable for my mouth today. God knows why.
Maybe cause my fav TuTuKueh isnt in sight.)= I shall go hunt for it tomorrow again. (:

I didnt expect myself to fret over this kinda stuff at this age. 20, is an age somewhere in the middle of teenager and an adult. Maybe thats why i have to worry over these. Sighs. I dont like it at all.

But in any ways, GAMBATE Maine ((:

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

Mutual, after a great conversation about your future and feelings.

You Attract A Good Amount of Guys

While you may not get the most offers in the room, You've got a good thing going - dating wise You could flirt more and dress up a bit to attract more guys But in general, you are doing just fine!

You Will Be an Unconventional Bride!

You're probably the type of girl who never considered getting married - until you met *him* You're not a big fan of white dresses, church weddings, or cheesy DJ's That's okay - you'll do it your way... whether that means a Vegas wedding or guys as bridesmen While you may not toss the bouquet (or have anyone to toss it to), it will still be the most romantic day of your life!

You are a Total Romantic

For you, love is like a fairy tale. Or magic. Or a Meg Ryan movie. Problem is, you sort of want all three. You bring the spark in the relationship In turn, you expect your guy to keep the fire burning Not a bad deal, as long as you find the right Prince.

You Are An Independent Girlfriend!

Whoa, Ms. Independent! Your guy digs your modern style... But he's sometimes left to wonder if you really like him. Keep that unique spirit, but show him your love a bit more often. No worries - you're light years away from smothering him!

He Loves You For You

When it comes to your body, your guy hardly notices It's nothing to do with the way you look... He's just has really fallen for you But make sure to stay sexy - keep the chemistry going strong!

You Were Nice This Year

You Were 35% Naughty, 65% Nice Okay, so you weren't *entirely* nice this year But Santa doesn't expect a modern girl to be perfect You were good enough - and you'll be rewarded for it

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

You are a Good Girlfriend

Maybe too good of a girlfriend, in fact. You will do almost anything for your guy. And while that makes you a great girlfriend... In this case, it also makes you a doormat

I need a new haircut/hairstyle.
I need new undies.
I need more masks, to stock up.
I need to drink more water to stop the lips cracking.
I need more tops.
I need to smile more.
I need to dislike lesser people.
I need to sleep like a normal human being.
I NEED ALOT ALOT OF MONEY. ALOT.


I dislike you. I really do.
You, to me, are a bitch, nothing more.
I don't even wanna use the word bimbo on you.
Don't make me hate you.

What kind of season will you enjoy eating steamboat?
A. Winter ( To Qn 2)
B. Summer (To Qn 5)
C. No matter what season (To Qn 1)

1. Do you like to have some sauce on your food?
A. Like (To Qn 2)
B. Don't like (To Qn 5)

2. Will you add eggs in your steamboat soup?
A. Yes (To Qn 3)
B. No (To Qn 6)

3. If you find a cigaratte butt in ur steamboat food, what will you do?
A. Quarrel with the boss and request another new one. (To Qn 13)
B. Stop eating and just pay and go. (To Qn 10)

4. What is the main point ypu will consider for choosing a steamboat restaurant?
A. Famous ( To Qn 7)
B. Reasonable prices ( To Qn 8)

5. If the steamboat restaurant has a new product of steamboat, will you dare to try?
A. Yes ( To Qn 6)
B. No ( To Qn 8)

6. How many people do you like to have your steamboat meal with?
A. 2-3 soulmates ( To Qn 9)
B. A big group of friends ( To Qn 3)

7. If the steamboat restaurant is very crowded, will you wait for a seat or go to another place?
A. Wait ( To Qn 11)
B. Proceed to another one ( To Qn 12)

8. What kind of food you like to add?
A. Noodle ( To Qn 9)
B. Vermicilli "Tang hoon" ( To Qn 7)

9. Will you drink the soup first or finish all the ingredients in the bowl then drink the soup?
A. Drink the soup first ( To Qn 10)
B. Eat the ingredients first ( To Qn 12)

10. If the boss tells you that you must add some SPECIAL and ODD i! ngredient in the soup to make it more delicious, will you dare to add?
A. Yes ( To Qn 17)
B. No ( To Qn 13)

11. Will you drink a cup of cooling water after you finish this steamy hot meal?
A. Yes ( To Qn 15)
B. No ( To Qn 14)

12. When you are having your steamboat, do you put in your meat first or put in later?
A. Put it once the steamboat start ( To Qn 15)
B. Later part then put ( To Qn 11)

13. Do you like to put all types of food at one go into the steamboat or have it put in one type by one type?
A. All ( To Qn 17)
B. One type at a time ( To Qn 16)

14. What drink will you like to go with your meal?
A. Oolong Tea ( To Qn 16)
B. Plum juice ( Type A)

15. Do you like to have steamboat at home or outside?
A. Home ( To Qn 16)
B. Outside ( To Qn 14)

16. Will you mind if another customer is standing behind you, waiting for you while you are finishing your food?
A. Mind ( Type B)
B. Don't mind ( Type C)

17. You are already very full with your meal but the boss offer to let you have another steamboat meal, will you eat it?
A. Yes (Type D)
B. No ( To Qn 16)

RESULTS....
TYPE A Shy, a bit of an introvert. You are more stubborn and like to stay alone quietly at home. To you, talking to strangers is a hard thing so you have not much friends. But you will still have some soulmates. You need to treasure people who care and love you. You are more interested in your own matters, you will try your very best to achieve your target. But you can't do everything alone, and just depend on yourself, learn to open up and accept other opinions. Try to get along with different people.

TYPE B You are a more active person, drawing a clear line between happiness and unhappiness. You are more quick-tempered. If you encounter things you like, you will do it without second thought. But once you encounter things that you hate, you will wish to get out of it as soon as possible. As you are a person of your own views, the friends you tend to have will be of the same pattern. But once good friends, you will understand them a lot and go all the way to help then. Friends are very dependent on you. As you are too emotional, you may make a storm out of a teacup wit! h your friends. You must learn to do things in order and not give up easily. You can try making friends with those you don't think you can get along with, don't stick with the same category. This will make you more popular and charming.

TYPE C Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in social life but seems that no one will talk bad about you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you
always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every person differently. To look at the bright side, you adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack of character, although you are one big nice guy but you lack of charm. On the surface, you have a lot of friends but once you have troubles, you lack of soulmates to help you around. You must try to express yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you can understand yourself more.

TYPE D You are stubborn, like to go in circles and don't get to the point. Once you decide on something, no one can change your mind. You are a good leader in a group so you win a lot of trust from your friends. But as you
are too persistant on your own thinking, you neglect other people's suggestions therefore you can easily make enemies. Although it is good to maintain your own character but it doesn't mean you totally ignore other people's thoughts and feelings. You will let people think you are hard to handle and you will lose friends gradually and may end up alone. You need to learn to accept other people's opinion. This will make your social circle bigger and you will understand yourself better.

HOHOHO. i'm type B, you?

Was just wondering how can gurls be so silly over guys.

Saw the him. He's still together with the MAIN girlfriend. The first one i got to know.

Amazing, how she is able to accept, whatever that he has done all these while.

Luckily I'm not a very good friend of her. If not i'll be stucked in the middle.

Sighs..

Stucked in the middle.. Sighs.

I miss you, I miss you very much.

I miss you so much that my heart is aching.

Do you feel the same way as i do?

I'm imagining you sleep right at this moment. It sounds sick, but yes i am thinking of that right now.

I feel so exhausted from all these.

The lethargy is draining me out.

So much that I can't do my homework, which is required tomorrow.


SIGHS.Sighs.


I'm going to bed.

Goodnights.

it's really upsetting for the tummy. i feel uncomfortable inside out.




Now i know what ting means by missing someone in the night. whatsmore, it's not only in the night for me.. it's almost a all day round routine which i cannot control at all.

it's making me damn emotional. For a moment i can be sobbing and thinking through alotta things, and the next moment i can be laughing and joking around and then again i can flare up and show you the blackest face i can have.


I hate myself when i cry myself to sleep almost every night. I have no idea why i tear, but i just do.


As the bus sends me home and school, to and fro.. As i watch the drops of rain drizzling down the window, the tears eventually well up my eyes.


SIGHS!!


But i believe all these are worth it.


Waiting for my love to arrive.. (: ♥

Sometimes.. it's only when you come to a certain point where you need friends, and thats when you know who your true friends are.
Those whom you think will come to your 'rescue', never arrives. Those whom you never expect them to pick you up, will lend a helping hand to you and indeed surprise you.
There are also friends whom unintentionally cheer you up just by telling you they love you (whether its true or not) , by asking you out to chill and probably do nothing else. That will make your day, unknowingly.

But maybe i'm being too stupid to really, i mean really love the friends around me. It's tiring to love so many people at the same time, and the worse thing is i'm not loved back. i should start to learn to love myself more, and more, and more moremoremore. (:


neways.. K Box-ed yest. had great fun. thanks peeps.. and i shall wait for BK to upload the one and only unique MTV by Steffie Zai Kua.. LOL.



Joycey and mee. (:

Christina and BK singing a certain love song, i cant rem what it was. gayness. (the star isnt suppose to be steffie, but thanks for the pose. =p)

more gayness, pls look carefully.there are 3 guys in the picture.

Maybe HE's right.

Or maybe he's right.

Or maybe I'm right.

woosh. I've got $30 Takashimaya Voucher, with no minimum amount required. But what can i buy at taka? Maybe i should do up my hair at Taka. Maybe I should pamper myself with some nice outfits. Maybe I should feed my tummy with some fabulous food, to gain the weight.

AND I'VE SHRUNK AGAIN! roars. According to Joyce-Lyn: You're alil shorter than BK adi.

MY GOD.

Okay, sorry for that sudden rant. It just came to my mind suddenly.

I wanna go jogging, I wanna go swimming, I wanna go gym-ing, I wanna go play badminton, I wanna go cycling. Suddenly, i wanna do all of these. Cause i feel so sick everyday. It seems like I'm never recovering from my cold that i feel so weak to get out of bed every morning. I feel like suntanning at Sentosa as i hear Joyce talking about it. But I'm too dark, i should go use the whitening mask i have, which i refuse to use. heh.

talking about masks, i should go buy the milk mask, used em all up few weeks back. yupps.

I seriously hate my hair presently. I wish I can shave everything away. BAHS.

I think, i should start saving money, then i can shop. HAHA. No lahx, for the sake of saving bahx. sighs.

My mum just nagged at my stupidity. For not writing in my time-in and time-out when i worked. HAHA. she said a specific time whereby she'll pay me what.. so obviously if i had any OT, i doubt she'll pay, although i din skive. wells, compromise bahx. doesnt matter. Cause L & M were the only ones marking, they needed me to assist, so i did. And I wasn't told that I'll be paid for assisting. erm, ya, doesn't matter to me.
But Mama said i'm stupid. bleahs.

Woot, nice show. Off I go. tata.~

I was thought that i was too sensitive thinking of all the things in these ways.

But I guess I'm still behaving and perceiving in the same way.

I just can't help it.

Won't you feel uneasy hiding things from me? And talking in front of me, but not wanting me to know about your discussions?

Wells, depends on why you wanna hide from me, isn't it?

I refuse to admit that it's affecting me like hell. I just put up a smile, despite anything.
Cause what's the use of crying? whining? complaining?

It'll only lead to more conflicts.

The situation was as I have imagined it to be. Damn sad to say. How I wish it'll happen the other way round.

Anyhows,

That matter aside.


I was on the bus on the way home today. Cause it was peak hours and most Office/Factory workers are going home. So i may consider the bus very packed, compared to normal timings.

And there's this auntie, who REFUSES to move in, when there was like space for more than 5 adult. Guess why? Cause there is a lady who is sitting on the seat in front of her, alighting at the next stop. Well done, that resulted in 5 less people being able to board the bus.

Whatsmore, after the lady got off the bus, she still REFUSES to sit down. Cause the seat was TOO HOT. she just stood in front of that seat, and looked here and there, like 'chopping' the seat. Minutes later, she slammed on the seat a couple of times, so loud, it woke the person who was dozing off nearby. She's STILL NOT SITTING. Ard 30 secs later, she FINALLY sat down, ignoring those stares by the passengers standing.

To add on to her INCONSIDERATION, she was with a MORE inconsiderate friend. Cause they wanted to CHITCHAT, so her friend happily stood at the exact same spot she stood on, before she sat down. Not allowing anyone to move it. And when people in front attempted to move across her to fill up the rear of the bus, she glared at them angrily.

Sighs, how i wish this isn't Singapore. Tsk, embarrassing.

And oh ya, i find this funny, but i don't think it will be to readers, cause you werent present. haha.

A primary/lower sec schoolboy dozed off and slept on my shoulders. not wanting to wake him up cause he looks real exhausted. and he continued sliding and sliding down, until he was sleeping on my arm. I felt his hair tickling me, was damn irritating. So i had no choice, so i tapped on his arm. And he wakes up, and looked at me blindly, not knowing what happened. LOL. I just smiled at him and looked away.

If i hadnt wake him up, i think he'll slide all the way to my waist and i'll shove, and he'll fall off the seat. GOSH, I'm not that mean. (:

photos up. (:

Embarrassment, but still.

One man's meat is another man's poison.

HAHAHA, Have fun looking at the high-drunk-me.

How can you take a drunkard's words for real? The point is, i don't even remember what i said, really, word for word, i can't remember, topics, maybe a lil.

Are you gonna forgive what i said, when i was like high-dead-drunk? No matter what nasty language i used, no matter what crude words i've used, I seriously don't mean them in the harsh way!

Will you just lemme hug you again, and I'll never let go.

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attached / single
thirtyirth september nineteen eighty-seven
charm_aine@hotmail.com
lUrVeS <3 Myself More than anyone else

I want him, But I can't have him.

*do-s
`GO FER A HOLIDAY!!
`New HairCut
`go fer thai massage
`shopping at JB
`watch movie(S)
`move out of here
`EyeBrow Trimming


*get-s
`Bright Orange Adidas jacket
`TOPSHOP Undies(a yellow one?)
`Victoria's Secret's moisturiser
`A new Mp3/Mp4
`Party Bra
`A few tops
`Upgrade my Laptop
`'a Solution' Toner
`Milk Mask
`Milky Foundation (NO-02) (:
`Concealer


*achieve-s
`find doggie back to me
`to look for a job that pays well
`wanna bee rich
`Get My Car License
`wanna bee truly lurved♥
`wanna forget unhappiness (:
`be happy

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