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thinking~ thinking~

i love it when there's only ONE candle on it. =D

blow blow~

cut cut~

mummy mee and WIN, WHO DOESNT WANNA SMILE roars~

sonny, harn baobei darling ting, dearest, and mee ^^
make a wish and it'll come true XD

ting and mee

baobei mee and ting

THE family

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chalet at Pasir Ris. they peeps were fantastic. the surprise was REALLY SURPRISING. i swear i almost burst in to tears. of cuz i diin. it'll be damn embarrassing lar. i love em all. esp dearest and YY. i really really appreciate this plan. i'll never forget this day.

i love him. love him. and love him. with the last sentence of the birthday song, presenting his arrival. i'm damn touched. i felt like killing him for lying to me he was going out. huggs all. darrena and YY ran away from my hug. am i so scary? hahas. but i managed to hug them still.

went to the RED HOUSE. but it was DOWN. boos. then they wanna proceed to THE TOWER. i freaked out. darren tapped my shoulder. i swear i nearly lost my soul. scared the wits outta me. i'm more than glad that dearest was with me. i dunno what i'll be like without him. they went ahead without us. we went back with darren, sherlyn, lynn, joyce and i. yupps. i will go one day. when my guts is there. yupps. 3 CHEERS TO THOSE WHO WENT ALL THE WAY UP TO THE 4TH FLOOR OF THE TOWER ^^.

joyce-lyn and mee. i love her loadds

joyce, haikal(my daddy) and YY (he's eating the BALLS of potato. hahas)

joyce and sherlyn.

the fantastic bunch of peeps. from top left.

siaw dong, joyce, haikal, chris, YY, sherlyn, lynn, jowe, BK, Darren, DEAREST! and of cuz mee.

cake number 2 of the year ^^

the yucky, supposedly CHICKEN CHOP. WE LOVE SQUEEZING THEM, dont we, joyce and lynn?

there is some GAYNESS among the guys. god noes what got into them. but.. ewww. let the pics speak for themselves.



BK and YY, what kinda position is this sia..

chris and darren. HUDDLED TOGETHER after drinking.

supper-ed at downtown east with dearest. followed by strolling ard e area. ^^ took photos. dearest forced me to pose so much when i was so sleepy -_-



my new husband. lolx

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many testimonials and sms-es and calls received. loves all. and i sincerely, publicly apologise to my dearest. hereby, i say SORRY. for being too sensitive and unreasonable. i should believe that i am the one and only. i love you, and loving you more, and intending to love you more in future. i really do.

yuppies. thats abt it. we were damn exhausted. arrived home at 9am today. or rather yest. yupps. slept for only 3 hours. i'm off to bed soon.. school starting. roars. i havent had enough fun. T_T. booos. so long~ loves all. peace out.

hahaha. there are some pics i'm suppose to upload. but i think i'm too lazy to. so i shall wait till the chalet is over and upload all at the same time. wahahas.

in the meantime, joyce just shared this video with me. it's DAMN DAMN DAMN farnie. pls do not watch it while eating or drinking. lols.

i look forward to tmr.. oh.. nono. is less than 20 hours' time..

but i'm coughing. non-stop.

i know i made dear worried. i'm sincerely sorrie. i will visit the doctor tmr. *promise. (:

i'm missing him. but i cannot see him. yet if i see him, i'll get a lecture from him fer not taking good care of myself. ): sorrie dear. i will cherish myself as much as you cherish mee. XD

MR DOCTOR!!~ I'M COMING TO YOU TMR!!! DONT RUN.

btw. happie belated bdae to MY SONNY!!!~~~

why why!!?? why jon lost? why? he's such a fantastic singer. he's cool, he's cute, he's VERY SEXY.

i still love you, jon.

JONATHAN ROCKS!~

urghx. i'm so pissed with myself. i wish i can die this very moment. i feel so miserable. fever, cough, running nose, headache! rawrrs!!! i am so damn not alright larhx. i couldnt sleep well last night either. arent people who are sick suppose to sleep more soundly than normal people? why do i keep waking up?

i feel so cold, yet so hot. i perspire like siao when i'm under the covers. and i tremble like mad when i take the blankie off. BODY AR BODY, what do you want sia.. i'm like a heated oven on the outside and and igloo on the inside. and the headache is making me not think right. there's bound to be many mistakes in the entry and i cannot realize it at all. so pardon me please.

and my left eye's lid cannot stop twitching. roooaarrSS!! is something bad gonna happen? dammit dammit. i feel so lousy. i wanna die now~~!! my sore throat isnt giving me a good time either. i cannot even swallow my saliva properly. no appetite cuz of it. drinking of water is a burden as well. urrgghhxx.

i'm not any better despite dear placing the wet towel on my forehead this morning. i dont feel any better. i'm still buring!!~

its making my temper to the max. i think i will fuck anyone upside down if they were to offend me just a lil bit. i apologize but i'm in the worse mood ever. and i wasted one million mesos in maple. fuck it sia. the comp just restarted on its own. and there goes my one mil at the divorce area. dammit dammit. and there is something wrong with blogger/the comp. suddenly typing chinese words when i din even on the chinese programme thingy. rooaarrrssS!!

TO ALL: please refrain yourself from provoking me or you and i wont have a nice day.

maybe i should just keep quiet and stay at home alone. that settles it. roars!

haha. ya, as my title said so. i shall just upload the pics. to show you what i've been doing these days.

bugis-ed with joyce on sunday. MOS burger-ed. as in M-O-S. lols, as what joyce said. she's mad abt MOS. shopped. bought a top (<. MANICURED!!!!woohooosshh. i'm lovin it. ((: headed to joyce's house for fringe cutting session. lolx. met up with bao to have dinner tgt. bao was sickk. poor thing. *pats head. but he's alright now! cuz there's a special person named Dr. Aw. wahahahas. let the photos speak bahx. cam-whoring at joyce's place. (her fav, taking pics facing the mirror -.-)

crazee camming at my void deck ^^

tried to take pic of my manicure. but.. failure.

my beloved.

i just lurrvve him. *muacks.

forced to pose for the cam. as usual ):

i cant help myself from falling in love with you. i dont care what are the obstacles that we are going to face in the near future. i will hang on and never give up on you. (: *huggs.

maine ish loved. and i love him back. ((:

sakae sushi-ed yest. sorrie i din manage to take any pic. hahas. was alright, toured ard orchard. and home sweet home (:

today. went SIM for ting's pageant thingy. dammit that it rained. roars!~ thankfully bao acc mee. thankfully that joyce joined us ((:

went Jurong Point. walked ard. i'm damn lazy to type larhx. just look at the pics and videos. (: have a nice day.

and. maine ish happie(((: cuz i love him (:

yesterday..

andy lau ish MINE!! WAHAHAHAS.

Jay Chou IS NOT hers. ^^

today.

elmo and cookie monster ^^

dear claims that we are fighting because we are fighting for him. lol. but you realized? we are smiling, lolx.

chipmunk.. or rabbit..? hahahas.

cool eh? HE'S MINE!~

the SIM pageant..

my darling ting ((:

the contestants..

the top three..

the 2nd runner up..the 1st runner up..

the champion. Miss SIM 2006. *keeping my comments to myself.

yupps. thats abt it. took videos of their catwalks. shall upload some other times bahx. ((: loves all. and LOVES DEAR MOST. (((:

off i'm going to my DAHLING, JOYCE-LYN'S BDAE CHALET. (:

so i'll be gone for quite a number of days.

and i'm starting work one the 11th of Sept. so..

i'll be gone, earning money, to repair my computer so that i will be BACK ONLINE!!~ ((:

so... bear with it for a a few more days, if not one week or two, and you will see me agn!!!

*muacks, loves all!

woke up damn early yesterday, AND today. dunno why wors. sleep less than 6 hours and i'm awake adi. dunno whats wrong with me.. nevermind.

meet those chaps in town. chilled at orchard emerald food court. waited for the rest to arrive. poor siawdong sia. he was the most drunk. (or was it mee?) lols. and he was the earliest to arrive to wait for everyone. *pats head. AND AND AND!! saw BK first, at Dhoby Ghaut MRT. he was in SHIRT AND PANTS LAR. so smart. he reminds me of jiankai. hahas.

then everyone was laughing at me larhx. ROARS~ they said i chi Chris's dou fu the previous night. it wasnt that bad bahx. T_T all i did was lean on him, hug him and and.. kiss him only mahx. (:

had fun. KTV-ed. damn farnie lar. i was having sorethroat mahx. then i think i sounded damn weird. and we were singing 'wu ding". and the guys dunno how to sing.. so we had to sing gurl and gurl larhx. then i tried to sing the guy's part. wahlaueh, i din know having a low voice is so miserable. RAHHS. i din manage to act the voice. lols. think i went off key. HAHAHA.

sang alotta songs.. then CHRIS SANG ME TWO WESTLIFE'S SONG XD i'm happie! but.. NOT SATISFIED. cuz i SANG WITH HIM! roars! he's suppose to sing alone, FOR ME. and tgt with a GUITAR!~ lalala~~ keke.

and chris.. he sang alotta songs too. make me feel like crying. and YY was damn damn damn farnie. we cannot stop laughing at him. esp when all the guys were singing "dui mian de nv hai kan guo lai" lols lar!! and they were forcing siawdong to sing "wo ai tai mei". he rap-ped lar! hahaha. almost all the songs he chose was rap. and almost ALL of them are in canto larhx. i did learn a few lines from them XD

then HE called. idk what he wants. but i know now. but still a lil uncertain. chris was like shouting "dont worry, she's enjoying WITH ME!"lols, i dont think he heard. nevermind.

din-ed at cine. was.. a lil.. unhappie. but, forget it (: cuz i love em ((:

walked ard at taka, while ting went to shop for her BODYSHOP stuff, AGAIN.
chris told all of em what happened. and the guys were so angry with HIM. i could see the angry faces, and telling me what i should scold him with. and and.. what they are gonna say to him when he calls agn. ): made me so scared that i dont even dare to take the phone outta my bag. when i got it out when it was ringing, they were snatching to ans. urghx. lucky the one who ans din say much like i expected him to. (: thanks.

we were planning something.. but.. erms. cannot say. HAHAHHAA. cuz the person will be reading this larhx. (:

moved on to starbucks. but the huge space areas were taken. whats left were pathetic small tables. how to squeeze a hell lot of 10 pple?

shoo we wanted to go to acid bar.. but the weather was so darn unpredictable. we were afraid we couldnt compete with the weather at all. lols, our speed wasnt super sonic. yeps. so we ended up Balcony at The Heerens. the ambience was SUPERB. and i was so darn sad i wasnt allowed alcohol. rahs!!! then i chose not to order any beverage. HMPHS. uncle chris and daddy are baddies!!! ROAR ROAR ROAR!!~~

BUT i did manage to steal a few sips ((: a huge sip of YY's heineken, a last huge gulp of Joyce's Martini and.. ting's KilKenny. WAHAHAHA. arent i smart? (: (uncle's gonna kill me if he reads thisT_T). then alotta them advised and taught me what i should/should not do. but.. so cruel T_T

then chilled alil longer. and siaw dong continued his magic cards' tricks. lols. so much failure larhx. lols. then chris had to leave, so did joyce and some needed the toilet. and ting had to go to harold. so.. we splitted lorhx. *hugs chris XD my another orh la love! (I AM NOT CHI-ING HIS DOUFU OR KA-ING HIS YOU OKIES!!). they went to dinner number 2. i wanted to go but.. i din larhx. pei ting mahx. (:

i went home lorhx. then.. i saw HIM at my void deck. erms. was bloody shocked i almost din have time to react and think what i should do. then like that like that. like this like this. dilly dally-ed alot. before he finally said what he wanted to say. idk. i dont think i will say yes. idk. not in the near future. in the furthest future, idk. idk larhx. i feel like i'm more than a spare part. he was waiting for her to finish her exams. while waiting, he gave up. and we got tgt. then she finishes her exams, then he said he got feelings for her. got back with her. its like.. idk.. i feel like a THING which makes him kill time, while he was waiting for her. then now, he says she claims "i will never go back to you." and there he is, coming to me and says he cannot stop thinking of me. i thought thru alot. IF she doesnt say no to him? how will the situation be like? he will just dump me aside? not even frens? i feel so SPARE, pls SPARE ME, i wanna be SPARED!

went PC bunk with edwin. boring. talked to fred's mum. idk whethere it's good or not. whatever. meeting her on tues. whatever.
whatever whatever whatever.

HE called me. i ans eventually. dammit. and i called him, he DIN ans. DAMN YOU ALRIGHTS. make it as if i were the one desperate FOR YOU. i am not okie! i will forget YOUR HP NUMBER. so that i will not know what number to dial if i wanna call you. yupps. damn damn damn.

wahahaha. went eski bar. i dowanna talk abt it. i know i was high.. i think.. i'm not to the extent of drunk bahx..

all the things which i rem.

1. i met chris at city hall.
2. we were at macs, and suria showing me a lotta magic tricks. and i learnt some!
3. we walked a long way to have a VERY filling dinner at some thai food place.
4. stef came and we started spouting abt "freeing the birds". WAHAHAAS.
5. i was competing with darren in subzero.
6. i could have continued the competition. but i gave up, cuz i was adi sick, i dowanna feel worse.
7. so i gave up. i lost.
8. i finished the entire bottle, NEARLY one shot. cuz it was damn cold. so i stopped awhile to catch my breath.
9. darren caught me catching my breath. so i had to go on to another one.
10. second bottle. nearly brain freeze!! chris and stef stopped me at my half bottle.
11. i was abit blur adi.
12. then i THINK i finished the whole bottle..
13. then the world was swirling alil.
14. i think i had like 10 tonnes of gas in my body.
15. i vomitted the foams in the toilet bowl. stef.. was in the toilet with me? i think. haha. i love you dear..
16. i think i kissed siaw dong. THINK.. i kissed stef.. i think.. i said i love you to almost everyone.
17. i think i kissed joyce.
18. i know i practically knocked out on chris. i think he took care of me.. think i laid on his lap. idk. i dont really rem.
19. i think i heard alotta laughters. i think i laughed and.. CRIED. fuck, i think i cried alot. dammit. i think i cursed alotta pple. darn!
20. i rem.... stef helped me.. joyce helped me.. OH OH OH!! I REM!! ho meng.. asked me to dance! or smth. dunno..
21. OH!! i rem!!! darren and.. YY, or was it BK? tried to force me to disclose my maple user and pass!! wahahaha. I WAS SOBER ALRIGHTS! i din give.. i.. think? ya.. i think.. I DIN LAR.
22. i noe i was high. yupps. chris was nice XD
23. we walked VERY FAR, to chris's car. YY and pple left. Joyce left with darren.
24. left.. chris, stef siaw dong and mee!! walk walk walk. then i think I CRIED AGN!
25. then chris lent me his shoulder.. so did stef.. dont i just lurve them??
26. then saw haikel.. haikel lent me his shoulders. they were great! and chris massaged my legs, which were hurting. I REMEMBER!! then i LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH. kekeke.
27. then got on the car. talked alot.. i think i was the only one talking. rahhs.
28. then i see familiar streets. WAHAHAHA. WE WERE IN HOUGANG!!
29. then i saw my house!! then chris stopped. then i.. woooshh. i kissed my uncle chris!! think i kissed real hard. cuz i love him!!! sorrie chris if i did wrong T_T oops. idk, idk what i'm talking abt. but ya.. stef walked me up. and.. mum and dad were WAITING UP for me. dammit. i forced myself to look alright. i am what. arent i? ya.i bathed. now.. here! tingting talked to me. lols.. reminded me what a JERK alfred is. hahaha. i hate him!!!! so what if SHE is poor thing? so what? IDGAD!!!!! fuck off! ROARS!
30. AND JOYCE BROUGHT MY HP HOME! so i'm now with NO HANDPHONE. roars.

i wanna drink somemore. but they wont let me.. *sobs. and eski closed at 1am. darn. tmr's KTV. cant wait XD

" I wanna stop loving you".

and thats it. Maybe chris's right. it takes time to have a couple who have broken up to friends, let alone like what we were in the past. i duno whether what he had said is true, he still loves me?? i dunno.. if it's true, then ya, i hafta leave him alone cuz he wanna forget me. if it's just a lie, then he has his reason for telling me so. maybe he really cannot wait to get rid of me. so thats his way of shoo-ing me away.

sometimes how i wish i were to stand and pee. if i were the guy in this situation, i will choose none. be single and sort out my feelings right before getting on. i mean, this will cause let hurt to others as well as myself, isnt it? idk. i'm not trying to say that he should give up on her now, but.. idk larhx. I AM NOT ALLOWED TO CARE ANYWAYS.

i cried non stop. cuz not only he doesnt want me anymore. baobei doesnt want me as well. she must be damn exhausted from all these. if i were her, i willtoo. but but.. urghx. i dunno lar. i cried so much, my illness got worse. i cannot stop sneezing and coughing now.

i was so tired from all the cryings. i fell asleep subconsciously while watching CARS with mummy. i cldnt take it after the first disc. went to sleep. i think was quite early larhx. 7 plus? idk, cant rem. and i slept all the way.. till 11 plus today. brother said i had a hangover. lols. i cant imagine i am such a good sleeper. haish.. maybe its the things that happen so suddenly, so swiftly, and things ending so fast. idk.. many things ar.. that my body can hardly take it.. thats why it demands a GREAT REST. i'm still feeling tired now.. how i wish i can sleep throughout and there is NO NEED TO WAKE UP. but my bladder and tummy was having a riot lar.. lolx. so no choice. i had to get up. think i shall be going back to bed later. prays that i will feel better. being sick really sucks. i'm on a date tmr.. please dont lemme fall sick..

and i should be going away, from EVERYTHING on tues, if not wed onwards. please dont be sick, so that i can be left alone, from a place where no one knows me.. THANKS.

new blog. to dump all the rubbish which cannot be said PUBLICALLY.

i am damn fucking fucking angry. i dunno why i am angry. i dont really know who i am angry with too.

i'm gonna say all the real things now. yes, i admit. i do have feelings for him. but it's not that kinda feelings of love as in L.O.V.E. i think it's a basic need of every gurl bahx. a guy to care for you? yupp. but i truly dunno what he wants.

lemme state what happened.

he phone me yesterday. when i WAS STUDYING again. AGAIN. AGAIN!! then he asked me to change my blog's address. i was so damn pissed larhx. it's cuz of my post. i said something abt meeting someone tmr (which is today). it's all fake lar. i admit. it's all talking abt him. so? i'm just trying to cover up with a "meeting him tmr". i adi tried my best to hide my feelings for him. and what i say is affecting LYNN so much. what can i do? they are my exact feelings what. if she cannot take it, then DONT READ MY BLOG. see now, thanks to you. i have to crap all these openly, but discreetly. THANKS HAR!

then i was pissed, so i hung up after a "whatever!"

hours later, he called agn. and tried to make me laugh. asked me not to be angry. HE MADE ME ANGRY AND THEN ASKED ME NOT TO BE ANGRY. WTF YOU WANT LAR.

nvm, i promised i'll be friends with you no matter what. so i chatted with him. pei him talk. NEVERMIND. talked till 2am plus. i really cldnt take it. so i went to bed. God knows what he did and where he went, i dont really care too. then he called me agn at 6 plus. GODAMMIT. and say he wanna send my untaken clothes to me. and wanna buy breakfast fer me. i was DAMN SLEEPY K. deprived me of my sleep from 11 plus to 2 plus am. still not enuff. then i heard him boarding bus and all. i dont really care larhx. asked whether he was going to look for lynn. but he said HE WILL NEVER FIND HER. =.= she's your gf, isnt it?

and he purposely made me worried for him. saying things like. i dunno where i'm going. walking ard lorhx. see what bus i can take lors. this and that. URGGGHHXXX. dont get the wrong idea kies. i will care for you even if we had no past at all. i will care for my any other frens if this were to happen to them.

then 7 plus. another call. there comes the breakfast at my doorstep. and the only milk which i am not allergic to. 2 bottles of them. for a small me. and my clothes. rahhs.

how am i suppose to react? then he waited for me to take train tgt. but too bad, i dont take the train to sch. then chris called me.. and offered to fetch me to sch!! wooohooo!!!~~ i din love the wrong person XD

then acc him to wait for his bus home. then i left to wait for chris. keke. CHRIS!! YOU ARE DRIVING SO FAST. I COULDNT EVEN STUDY IN PEACE!!

and we reached sch damn early larhx. then call from baobei. saying to leave each other alone for some time. cuz LYNN IS VERY SENSITIVE TO THE CALLS WE MAKE TO EACH OTHER. hellosS???? the calls i made to him are things i wanna tell him lor. its him who calls me. what you expect from me? ignore his calls? OK FINE. i'm sick and tired of all these. THESE NONSENSE made me cannot concentrate well on my exams. and if i were to take any sup paper for this examinations, i will blame it all on THE BOTH OF YOU. i'm pushing all blames away for a moment. cuz i really HAD ENOUGH.

i will ignore. ignore. i hate it. but i hafta do it. i will cry for the loss of a friendship bonded. but what else can i do? i cannot salvage it anymore. All the best to you. God bless.

and BC. i finished v early lorhx. then hung ard with YY. then chris came. then joyce came. then BK came. then went to join them at the genting highlands. then talk talk talk. then saw EE. she's so damn stressed up i can see larhx. poor thing. that will be me in one year's time man. SOBS.

then acc stef to wait for her mum. then went home. then he CANNOT STOP CALLING ME. and i CANNOT STOP IGNORING. do you noe how much it hurts to be ignoring your calls? but this is what you want, isnt it?

and you came to tell me all these. why are you always contradicting your own words?


ALAN:things has happened to us very fast and finish it very fast

ALAN: route has been chosen by mi and i know i wont regret it and i cant regret it oso

ALAN: i just wanna see u happy and i will be at ease lerz.

ALAN: u always act very cheerful infront of everyone..

ALAN: but u cant bluff my eyes and heart

ALAN: since i m the one who casue u in this state, then i shall not make it worst lerz..

ALAN: all the best for ur future and take care of urself..

ALAN: anything call harnz when u sad or wad..

ALAN: she can handle it..

ALAN: i really hate to see u acting cheerful infront of mi when u are not

ALAN: suan lerz maine... wadever i say now is no longer that strong anymore..

ALAN: treat that wo men shi you yuan wu fen bahz..

ALAN: zai jian...

ME: what is it you want from me.

ALAN: nothing anymore.

ALAN: forever nothing anymore.

ME: FINE

ME: i just want you to know. i am not ACTING cheerful. i dont have any reason to do that. cuz i am REALLY happy. you want me to stay away from you cuz lynn is being v sensitive. and here i am trying to get away from you the best that i can. there you are, trying to say that it's like the end of everything. what are you trying to do?

i am damn fucked up now. i will marry whoever who will lemme vent my anger on you.

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*do-s
`GO FER A HOLIDAY!!
`New HairCut
`go fer thai massage
`shopping at JB
`watch movie(S)
`move out of here
`EyeBrow Trimming


*get-s
`Bright Orange Adidas jacket
`TOPSHOP Undies(a yellow one?)
`Victoria's Secret's moisturiser
`A new Mp3/Mp4
`Party Bra
`A few tops
`Upgrade my Laptop
`'a Solution' Toner
`Milk Mask
`Milky Foundation (NO-02) (:
`Concealer


*achieve-s
`find doggie back to me
`to look for a job that pays well
`wanna bee rich
`Get My Car License
`wanna bee truly lurved♥
`wanna forget unhappiness (:
`be happy

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