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I'm blessed. I've gotten two dresses for my GodBrother's wedding! A tubedress and a babydoll dress, proudly sponsored by my Godmama. (: They're not any expensive dresses from TopShop or DP or anywhere larhx. I don't print money, and I'm not so gek ark, to let my Godma spend so much money. (x

I asked my sister to cut off the white strips cause they'll look like pri sch shoes right. Hurr. My mom says needa take off the thread, so cannot see the white white thing there. But she doesn't dare to cause she's afraid the entire shoe will cui. hahax, so just leave it lor. I love it, really. Kiddish, but I'm 16 rem? (x

I should order a pair of piggies one for her, dare her to wear them =x Since she's 16 too! Hor sis! (((((;

Neways, share this conversation with you.

Father A: Aye, why aren't you at school today?

Child B: Ermm, dad, I've graduated.

Father A: HUH!? Why didn't I hear anything about that? When har?

Child B: Erm, a few days back was my last paper.

Father A: Not continuing your studies?

Child B: No money.

Father A: How much?

Child B: 12 k.

Father A: EHH. you wait for my to strike lottery this saturday. You know arhx, I missed that chance to win 300k that wednesday you know, if only I won, then you can go study..........*goes on to say why he 'missed' that chance.

If there are so many if only-s and they come true, I'll be a billionaire. Ha.

As promised, I'm back to blog. (: Bear with me, I've a feeling this'll be a long entry.

Like I was saying, yeaps, all the examinations are over, the modules are over, the course is over. I cannot help but recall how much things we've been through together. I cannot control but go over the photos again and again and again and again, reminding myself that they were the ones who were there for me. They were the ones whom I mugged my ass off with, they're the ones I 洴 my projects with. (Is that the right word I'm using?) Some of them were those whom I flared up with of course. (I don't have a bad temper so to start with, inherited from that man)

15 months! It's a whole FIFTEEN months! NOT 15 days, but 15 months. My goodness, 说长不长，说短不短。Compared to a primary school of 6 years, and a secondary school of 4-5 years, it's nothing. But being adults and adults-to-be and Uncle(s) (HAHA), with feelings untold and 'publicized', misunderstandings here and there. kBox-ing, Clubbing, ChillOut sessions, Heart to Heart talk moments, cries, rants, bitchings, those hugs and kisses. Those 忍气吞声s, to maintain the precious friendships and bonds. And not forgetting, the BICKERINGS! This is whole lot more than what I've experienced during my younger school lives.

Some, Most, All of them actually, are moving on the SIM's U or SIM partnership U. Which means, there're still major chances that they'll bump into each other every now and then. But I'm not. I'm not going to any University. I'm fucking going out to start work.

But most of my friends, erm all of them larhx, whom I've known since school times till they go out to start working, are making a huge turnover once they started work. They've no more freedom like they had during school times. The hangouts get so lil that there're almost impossible. The stress level however can be pushed up to the maximum, exceeding what they can ever endure.

Reading their blogs, listening to them talk, chatting with them on msn, I feel so useless, complaining and whining about just a mini tini weeni stress I get from projects and examinations.

Oh wells, that's something that I've to handle and cope myself. I shall start writing my resume, but what if I get supplementary papers for my exams har? Eh, put it on hold, I shall.

But I'm going to work l8er. Sighs. I need money. Cause I don't get pocket money during holidays. Which means, I'll not get any pocket money from now on, which means I cannot go out with anyone anyday cause I needa save money to start work. I needa eat right? I don't get my pay on the first day of work, right? Sighs. Things will be so much off better, if HE FUCKING allows my mom to keep all the money. FUCK, I dowanna start ranting about HIM again.

So much as I wanna forgive him, just looking at my situation now I feel like killing him. Really. URGGHH. Whatever.

I shall be happy, conserve all these energy, and get ready for the work later,I might get nastier people at work. Bless me.





Never forgetting those bits and pieces of us for the past five semeseters. I love em all.

They're going mambo tonight. Sighs. I thought I'd be happy after the last paper and I get let all the worsest illness come out once and for all. But I feel like I'm recovering soon, but not yet. So I can't touch alcohol yet. ): I can't possibly go there and drink plain water (warm one), not get high, and cannot dance. Then go mambo, for?

Ya lor. I shall stay at home and recover from ALL illness, conserve the energy I've lost these few days. And ya, be powerful! So I can save the world!

LOL.

What am I talking about? Heh, I don't know.

I've alotta things to say. But I'm busy now. So, hehs. Another timperhaps (:

ps Joyce, are you waiting for me to say IT? HAHA, I won't! BLEAH!

Oh how great, I'm falling ill AT THIS TIME, AT THIS MOMENT. How much greater can life be?

I broke my own record and went down to the Chinese Physician, to grab some medication, and keep emphasizing to tehe Doc that these medicines MUST NOT put me to sleep har! My favourite part of medicine was actually to make me fall asleep, but I'm doing all the absolute opposite now. Just for? EXAMS. Bloody Hell.

"It's all in the mind," Steffie said. Reverse psychology does work, almost all the time. Fine, I really did try to remind myself how much I loved IMEC, and so I think I can pass the paper. So, I shall do the same now, I LOVE ECONS, Loving it to the max, I think I can die for it.

Of all times, I think there're millions of dwarfs in my nose running a marathon, deciding who gets to marry Snow White I suppose. What am I talking about? Goodness. Oh the good news is, I havent STARTED on my econs yet. Good news to many (x Cuz maybe we're on the same track. HA.

AND of ALLLLL TIMES, the Getai and 7th month dinner at the field across my house has to be TONIGHT. YES, OF ALL TIMES OF THE WEEK. Why a Monday? I thought it was on the weekends, that's why I didn't wanna stay home. Grrrrrrrrrrr!

I was thinking of something on my way home just now. I just felt that I'm pretty bad at judging human nowadays, or have always been. Those whom I thought are, aren't. Those whom I thought aren't, are. Sighs.

In the worse mood ever, dammit.

Good luck peeps! Press On!

Off to my bitter bitter non-drowsy medicine. Yuck.

I shall update before I mug my ass off this weekend. I thought I'll be able to score well for my ther two subjects other than that **** AM subject. But the CA results show that I'm wrong. I needa work harder than now. It's not like I'm working at all now. HurrHurr.

I'm only a few topics on the *** AM subject. Havent touched the rest yet. But have been scanning notes for others. Hmphs. Sighs.

Everyone around me is mugging like fuck. I'm the only lazy one. And I'm not allowed to take ANY sup paper. Cause if I do, I'd have to treat LC to Sakae Sushi, and Jack's Place for my baobeii. But if I do not take any sup paper, I get a treat to Sakae Sushi, and... minus another meal? (x

SIGHS!!

Econs arhx Econs, why are you so lousy. Why Why Why?? This is the worse CA results I've gotten for the past 5 sems man. Dammit.

Study. Study. SIGHS.

I'm supposed to be studying. But when the mood came, I realized that I was staring at strange-looking words. Ha, although it's not that first time I'm totally lost in a subject + haven't started studying + no notes written yet, but this is really the first time that even the notes provided are in bits and pieces. Even the tips I've gotten from everywhere, don't link with the notes I have. Am I holding on to a different set of notes from the rest? *shrugs. Really, lost. The motivation to study sank down. Thus, the mood is almost gone. I'm rather tired already anyways. So I shall start to mug, hurr 10 hours later. (:

I din know such a place exist. HAHA. KuKu. Let me boast about having to stay in this red dot country almost entire of my 20yrs of life. (:

I was having plans to go SOMEWHERE, I don't know where, but just SOMEWHERE, after my exams. WE did have plans, but duh, it's no more. I just want my birthday to be spent somewhere else, other than here. And before I step into the cruel stage of adult life. But, hurr, dream on Maine. Unless I strike lottery and go to that Somewhere by myself ( I don't bet btw, HAHA).

*This is not a hint to anyone. I just wanna rant, apologies to any nervous shock victims. HAHA, I'm crazy over Biz Law.

My heart is super heavy now, I think it's heavier than my body mass, but I've no idea what my burden is. Someone, lighten it please? ):

Oh yarhx, some pictures for you to.... enjoy? smile? whatever. Yupps.

The ladies +

The Guys.= US!The Funky US (:The Next GatsbyModel (xSTUDY STUDY! in 10 hours' time. (:

I'm so not happie. HURR. That fucking guy on the bus last Friday is still in my mind. The more I think of it, the angrier I'm getting. But there's nothing I can do. I don't even remember how the fuck he looks like.

Guys like this should be prosecuted and slaughtered to death.They shouldn't even exist so to start with. HURR!!!!!

Neways, the presentation was alil not up to standard. But it was still a success so as to speak. (: Thanks loads folks, you guys rock!

I just read the email Alex sent to us. And that reminds me of how time really flies, that our course is gonna be over like in a few weeks' time. And I can't imagine myself being where I will be. If I tell you that I will feel nothing, as parting with one another is just parts and parcel of life, I'm lying.

I shall not be emonemo-ing since I may affect alotta people. I just wanna say, really all of you guys are very much appreciated, no matter what you've done/not done for me. No matter how I bicker with some of you. No matter this and that, I will miss all of you loads loads loads, very greatly.
):

(;

Saturday's movie theatre is always packed, full-house. EVERYshow. Even the ulu theatre at Century Square. Hmphs. Nearly went to the ulu-est Bedok for the show. Hurr.
I've alotta things to say. But I don't know where to start, and where to continue from.

But I really wanna say, YOU seem to have changed, so much I think I don't know you. I am so afraid to stay close to you. Sighs, what happened to you? Is it that HE changed you?
I don't know what to say about you, seriously.


Oh ya, to those who are very interested in this topic,
He confessed and told me the story from the beginning, that he's really innocent. What am I suppose to do? Change the status between the two of us? Don't know Don't know.

By the way, I'll be changing my number later tonight. If I've missed out sms-ing you my new number, apologies and tag me to remind me. (:

Will upload more when I'm free. Till then (:

It's perfectly right to love myself more than anyone else, cause I'm the one who made him leave me alone. And we're now alone in our own world.

Yeaps.

No more asking of chances. No more looking back at things. No more you suspect me and I suspect you, and definitely no more dilemma.

All he left me is tears and hurt. How can I ever allow that to happen to myself? Sighs, I guess all that I can say is that I'm a gurl afterall. The soft-hearted species.

Well as I've always said, at least I've done my part, I have been totally faithful to him, I give in to him, I've done... Not the best, but good, as a girlfriend. And I'll do my part as an ex-girlfriend to pick myself up and move on.

No matter whether he has cheated on me, it doesn't matter anymore. If he did, he has chosen that path. If he hadn't, and he's doing these for a friend, he's chosen to support his friend and lie to me.

But if he hadn't cheated on me, then why the message "I really love you very much. Can you plese please please please give me a chance? I promise I'll change".
Why is there a need to change when he hasn't done anything wrong? Why doesn't he dare to face my parents if he's innocent?

LC asked me, "Are you sure you don't wanna give him another chance?"

I wanted to wait till the day he can tell me the "truth", but I don't think that day will ever come. I don't even trust myself anymore.

It's really quite difficult to accept that it ended this way, I being unsure of what the reason actually is.

Furthermore

Single, is a status hard to be, to me. But I promise that I'll try, and I'll not give in to my emotions and the word "L-O-V-E". I'll hang my pride up high and achieve the best for my future. I'll stop the tears as hard as I can.

The exam time table is out. I'll soon complete my exams, graduate, and move on to work etc etc. I dowan anything to come in my way.

Presentation was.. A success? Ya, at least there was no drastic hiccups. Righties Righties? (x

Steffie's Q & A was farnie. Hurr.

Wells, those who already know what happened,

He insisted that he did not do anything to let me down but there're certain things which are unexplainable.. Hurr. I see..

These are the memories I'd like to keep. No more.

Leave me alone.

Great thanks to my dear bro to come down right after one sms from me.

I don't know what I'll be without you.

Okies, fine I still owe you the meals. Zoukie Zoukie? (:

Haha. I hope I don't get sued for posting this. But I find it stupid larhx. lolx.

Happy Birthday HotBabe!

(:

it was BBQ at the Ulu-est area at East Coast Park yesterday night.

Steffie saved my night cause she drove me there! I had to be her slave for the night. ):
But I almost din do anything except feeding her sotongs. HAHA.
But I wont be there to have fun it hasn't been her.

I wouldn't have enjoy the night so well if I hadn't been there.
I wouldn't have experienced what I experienced if I hadn't gone for the BBQ.
I wouldn't have been doted so much if it wasn't for yesterday night.
I wouldn't have been so happie, then.

(:

A simple move she made created so much difference to me.

Thanks load my dear.

I'm willing to be your slave for another week. I swear. ((((((((:

Happiness. (:

Just hope that it'll last long enough.

I'm in such good mood that my group member is suppose to send me her part, but I've yet to receive it at now, 11pm. And I'm not flaring at all. She's better have a better explanation. Yupps.

He won't get to see this, but still,

Happy Monthsary Love.

I'm exhausted. I fell asleep on the bus and was so hard that I nearly broke my neck. ):

Ouch.

I don't know what I want yet, seriously. I thought I wanna give in and be Miss Nice. I thought I just wanna heck care and agree to whatever is being brought up. I thought I'm the one who wants to give up and ignore whatever plead and giving in.

I thought.

But never confirmed I am.

You said you were used to IT, because of my initial proposal, you placed all the blame on me. But you've never thought that, yes, I'm used to it too. But yes too, that I don't bear to.

Then what are we suppose to do? I don't know!!

Tonight is the night. So please ladies and gentlemen, even if you see me online msn, dont talk to me, unless I talk to you, okies?

Sorry but, ya. Thanks.

May God Bless Me.

I almost forgot to blog. But it isn't impt to blog everyday har. Neways, I'm adi here, so might as well.

I so broke! HAHA. (This is the how-many-times I'm saying this for this week?)

Joyce puked at Zouk yesterday!! WAHAHA. No larhx, it isn't as farnie as I wasn't there. Ya lor.

I must ascertain that some people, I don't know whether they're too free, or they just have got frustration to vent. For any reasons, I happen to be the victim. You need not keep emphasizing that you just had a tiff with whoever, so you're shouting at me. Cause I didn't cause you to quarrel with whoever. Wells, whatever.

Vivo-ed with joyce after Macro today.

Vivo is getting boring-er and boring-er. Boos.
We nearly got lost, finding sheer romance. LOL.
Ya, hopefully Joyce din get lost at Dhoby Ghaut. HA.


Oh oh, I wasn't wrong about the barrier. HA, he knows it too. He's alil slow, but better than nothing har.

I don't know what the REAL outcome will be. But I'm prepared for the worse larhx. Haven't I already am like weeks ago? HAHA. Fuck me larhx.

I wanna curl my hair badly. Sherlyn's got hairdresser lobang!! I may just get the curl at 50 bucks! Goodness!

Project! Test! AHH!

Good news is I'm done with BL. And 3/4 done with the summary of IMEC. I haven't started the ppt slides. Sighs!

My godbrother is gettng married. (: Means I get to shop for dress!! The 89 bucks dress I saw today!! WoooooHooooo. The one which Timothy bought for his gurlfriend! Hurr!!

I still feel so bloody broke, I wanna buy alotta things, I havent been shopping, and I still owe LC many, many, many treats. )= And I'm suppose to treat him to zouk. Hurr Hurr. ):

I think I need more than 24 hours a day. The project due dates are getting nearer and nearer, the presentations. oh gooshhh. I'm so dead.

)=

I'm not happie. ))))))))))):

OH YA, before I forget, I've decided to curl my hair. Cuz the lady at cine did a temporary curl for me, and I don't look that old afterall! And Joyce and Timothy said it's nice on me!! Yays. Any cheap hairdresser to recommend, anyone? (:

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*do-s
`GO FER A HOLIDAY!!
`New HairCut
`go fer thai massage
`shopping at JB
`watch movie(S)
`move out of here
`EyeBrow Trimming


*get-s
`Bright Orange Adidas jacket
`TOPSHOP Undies(a yellow one?)
`Victoria's Secret's moisturiser
`A new Mp3/Mp4
`Party Bra
`A few tops
`Upgrade my Laptop
`'a Solution' Toner
`Milk Mask
`Milky Foundation (NO-02) (:
`Concealer


*achieve-s
`find doggie back to me
`to look for a job that pays well
`wanna bee rich
`Get My Car License
`wanna bee truly lurved♥
`wanna forget unhappiness (:
`be happy

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