Sunday, August 12, 2007 ; 1:40 PMY
I really wish you were here.
It's perfectly right to love myself more than anyone else, cause I'm the one who made him leave me alone. And we're now alone in our own world.
Yeaps.
No more asking of chances. No more looking back at things. No more you suspect me and I suspect you, and definitely no more dilemma.
All he left me is tears and hurt. How can I ever allow that to happen to myself? Sighs, I guess all that I can say is that I'm a gurl afterall. The soft-hearted species.
Well as I've always said, at least I've done my part, I have been totally faithful to him, I give in to him, I've done... Not the best, but good, as a girlfriend. And I'll do my part as an ex-girlfriend to pick myself up and move on.
No matter whether he has cheated on me, it doesn't matter anymore. If he did, he has chosen that path. If he hadn't, and he's doing these for a friend, he's chosen to support his friend and lie to me.
But if he hadn't cheated on me, then why the message "I really love you very much. Can you plese please please please give me a chance? I promise I'll change".
Why is there a need to change when he hasn't done anything wrong? Why doesn't he dare to face my parents if he's innocent?
LC asked me, "Are you sure you don't wanna give him another chance?"
I wanted to wait till the day he can tell me the "truth", but I don't think that day will ever come. I don't even trust myself anymore.
It's really quite difficult to accept that it ended this way, I being unsure of what the reason actually is.
Furthermore
Single, is a status hard to be, to me. But I promise that I'll try, and I'll not give in to my emotions and the word "L-O-V-E". I'll hang my pride up high and achieve the best for my future. I'll stop the tears as hard as I can.
The exam time table is out. I'll soon complete my exams, graduate, and move on to work etc etc. I dowan anything to come in my way.
