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Thursday, August 23, 2007 ; 12:42 AMY

I really wish you were here.

I'm supposed to be studying. But when the mood came, I realized that I was staring at strange-looking words. Ha, although it's not that first time I'm totally lost in a subject + haven't started studying + no notes written yet, but this is really the first time that even the notes provided are in bits and pieces. Even the tips I've gotten from everywhere, don't link with the notes I have. Am I holding on to a different set of notes from the rest? *shrugs. Really, lost. The motivation to study sank down. Thus, the mood is almost gone. I'm rather tired already anyways. So I shall start to mug, hurr 10 hours later. (:

So here I am.

I have a super tough question in mind. Do all couples actually face the problem of insecurity? Do friends face insecurity? If you fall in love with a friend, will you be afraid that one fine day he/she walks in front of you and introduce another person beside him/her, hand-in-hand?

You have no idea how hurt I am, when I see people around me hurt. I hurt more than when people hurt me, cause I don't show it. Not showing my true emotions = internal injuries. Pain, very pain.

I think I got the emo emo from Alex. Darn. Well again, not entirely him, its the things that have been happening lately. So many questions left unanswered. Oh DAMN, I'm thinking through all these stupid stuff again.

There're so many things that I wanna do / propose my plans to people, but I'm afraid to. I'm afraid of rejection, I'm afraid of the beautiful imagination in my mind to be crushed into pieces. HE always says that I love to think about things which are untrue, unrealistic etc etc, making myself miserable to the results in the end. Even if the results are good, I refuse to believe that it's real. Hurr. I do? I don't know. How pessimistic I am if I am like that.

I'm utterly disappointed in myself man. There're so many "I-don't-knows" in my life, which I don't attempt to try to know.

Hurr. EMOEMO! GO AWAY.

hehs.

I saw this ad just now, it's ME!!!

I din know such a place exist. HAHA. KuKu. Let me boast about having to stay in this red dot country almost entire of my 20yrs of life. (:

I was having plans to go SOMEWHERE, I don't know where, but just SOMEWHERE, after my exams. WE did have plans, but duh, it's no more. I just want my birthday to be spent somewhere else, other than here. And before I step into the cruel stage of adult life. But, hurr, dream on Maine. Unless I strike lottery and go to that Somewhere by myself ( I don't bet btw, HAHA).

*This is not a hint to anyone. I just wanna rant, apologies to any nervous shock victims. HAHA, I'm crazy over Biz Law.

My heart is super heavy now, I think it's heavier than my body mass, but I've no idea what my burden is. Someone, lighten it please? ):

Oh yarhx, some pictures for you to.... enjoy? smile? whatever. Yupps.

The ladies +

The Guys.

= US!

The Funky US (:

The Next GatsbyModel (x

STUDY STUDY! in 10 hours' time. (:

The Girl <3

~~attached~~ / single
thirtyirth september nineteen eighty-seven
charm_aine@hotmail.com
lUrVeS <3 Myself More than anyone else

My Wishes

I want him, But I can't have him.

*do-s
`GO FER A HOLIDAY!!
`New HairCut
`go fer thai massage
`shopping at JB
`watch movie(S)
`move out of here
`EyeBrow Trimming

*get-s
`Bright Orange Adidas jacket
`TOPSHOP Undies(a yellow one?)
`Victoria's Secret's moisturiser
~~`A new Mp3/Mp4~~
`Party Bra
`A few tops
`Upgrade my Laptop
`'a Solution' Toner
`Milk Mask
`Milky Foundation (NO-02) (:
`Concealer

*achieve-s
`find doggie back to me
`to look for a job that pays well
`wanna bee rich
`Get My Car License
`wanna bee truly lurved♥
`wanna forget unhappiness (:
`be happy

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