Monday, July 09, 2007 ; 11:13 PMY
I really wish you were here.
Is this just me, or is this the stage that everyone will go through at my age?
It hurts me when I see people around me hurting. It hurts me even more when I cannot do anything to lessen their pains. It hurts me even more more, that I weren't there, when they needed someone.
Thinking back, I realized that so many things are happening upon graduation from my secondary school. This makes me miss school life so much, as in wearing school uniforms, attending morning assembly at 720am, queueing up at canteens at the same time with the rest of the school, staying back together as a class to solve Mathematics questions. But not anyone can turn back time.
But I really wish so much that I'd have cherished those moments more than I did.
Many were brought together during those times, but many were also separated, after graduation. And others only realized each other's presence upon graduation. While a minority of the rest, remain together, happily. It's hard to accept changes, especially when many of them come by all at the same time. But that's life, isn't it?
The matters we fret over, are so different from the past. It makes me have a sense of responsibility towards certain people or things. And I hate reponsibilities. But I've learned to commit, so committed, sometimes I'm afraid of myself and I don't know whether I am really me. I care about my surroundings, more than I ever cared about myself. I care about what my future is going to be, more than what I have now. I care more about money saving, than having more fun.
Oh drats, I think I'm going on and on. I think I'm getting naggier. And I hate it, but can't help it.
Shucks.
Fine, I shall stop here.
Goodnights.
