Tuesday, April 10, 2007 ; 8:55 PMY
I really wish you were here.
it's really upsetting for the tummy. i feel uncomfortable inside out.
Now i know what ting means by missing someone in the night. whatsmore, it's not only in the night for me.. it's almost a all day round routine which i cannot control at all.
it's making me damn emotional. For a moment i can be sobbing and thinking through alotta things, and the next moment i can be laughing and joking around and then again i can flare up and show you the blackest face i can have.
I hate myself when i cry myself to sleep almost every night. I have no idea why i tear, but i just do.
As the bus sends me home and school, to and fro.. As i watch the drops of rain drizzling down the window, the tears eventually well up my eyes.
SIGHS!!
But i believe all these are worth it.
Waiting for my love to arrive.. (: ♥
Sometimes.. it's only when you come to a certain point where you need friends, and thats when you know who your true friends are.
Those whom you think will come to your 'rescue', never arrives. Those whom you never expect them to pick you up, will lend a helping hand to you and indeed surprise you.
There are also friends whom unintentionally cheer you up just by telling you they love you (whether its true or not) , by asking you out to chill and probably do nothing else. That will make your day, unknowingly.
But maybe i'm being too stupid to really, i mean really love the friends around me. It's tiring to love so many people at the same time, and the worse thing is i'm not loved back. i should start to learn to love myself more, and more, and more moremoremore. (:
neways.. K Box-ed yest. had great fun. thanks peeps.. and i shall wait for BK to upload the one and only unique MTV by Steffie Zai Kua.. LOL.
Joycey and mee. (:
Christina and BK singing a certain love song, i cant rem what it was. gayness. (the star isnt suppose to be steffie, but thanks for the pose. =p)
more gayness, pls look carefully.there are 3 guys in the picture.
