Friday, March 09, 2007 ; 8:57 PMY
I really wish you were here.
As the door creaked open and close, as the wind blows to and fro the window, my suppressed heart has been forced up to the maximum. It has caused the tummy to be upset. It has lead to frequent visits to the bathroom. As i lay on my bed, typing this, the pain in the stomach/abdomen/gastric is throbbing hard, so hard and so deep i can hardly felt where the origin of the pain is.
To add on to the upset, are the cramps, which never seem to end, despite being already the third day.
Brought upon, together with the pain, are tears. Medicated oil and pills are not working on me. What's going on?
It has caused me to stay home the whole day.
and YOU. if you choose to ignore me just because the facts, which are not favourable towards you, are brought up and were in contact with you face-to-face. Then so be it. Face the wall and look back to what had happened and what you have done. Face the mirror and look at your true self. It's horrible.
My initial plans were ruined. Just by a word or two.
The resfusal to confide or approach anyone, made me take in everything myself. The possibility of learning and be stronger, will start from here.
To maintain and fulfil the promises made, i will bear in mind, those hurt that has been caused on me, so as to be ignorant and persistant.
I cannot predict what the outcome, from my decision to do all these, will be. But this is the only way, whereby i can protect myself and make myself continue to move on.
