Saturday, November 18, 2006 ; 1:22 AMY
I really wish you were here.
Can someone pls define Best friend, so that i can differentiate who is the one who is my best friend. maybe i should make life easier by listing some of the people.
Person AHave been friends for 5 years. she have been with me for all the laybacks i encountered. the break-ups i had. the friendship problems etcetc. but that was during Secondary School. i've left school for almost 2 years. ever since she has been studying studying and studying and more studying and studying and and and and and studying. sometimes when i encounter problems and i dunno who to turn to, i so much wanna call her. but i fear that i will be disturbing her. fear that i will be taking up her revision time. i drop her sms often, expecting to find out how she's doing. but no replies at all. i wish her good luck only thru her bf, who is also one of my good friend. sometimes i miss her, but there's nothing i can do. haix.
Person Bis there for ALL the problems i face. she helps me in solving almost all of them. to the extent of allowing me to stay over her house, meeting me outside in the middle of the night etc etc. and our shopping sprees are never ending and they are the most satisfying outings i can ever have.
I cry to her, i laugh with her. She's always here for me. She even teaches me POA when i had doubts.
Person CShe knows what's going on with me. She knows when something is gonna happen to me. She nudges me on msn often, to show that she cares. she'll talk on the phone with me, predicting that i will cry myself to sleep. She brings me out to just walk ard, to liven my spirits. She looks for Stingray for me despite rain or shine, knowing that i'm craving for it. (: She often makes me touched to tears. the things she does, the words she speaks, the moment we spend together.
Person Das it seems to everyone that we are
xing ying bu li. when i have trouble, i can talk to her, i can tell her what happened. but recently i found out that her problems are more than mine. i step back to telling her anything cuz it may just add on to her burden rather than helping her. i'm so afraid that she will break down agn. To me she's like alil sister. cuz this girl i know, is pure and somewhat innocent and hasnt laid any step into the society before.
so i'd wanna protect her with anything. i dont mind scolding people for her, i dont mind not having anything to eat just to lend her the money cuz she's broke. i dont mind eating economy rice with her when she hasnt have much money. i dont mind letting her take it out on me when her temper is up to the brim.
i dunno what i am to her.
"i dowanna tell you that i am tgt with him cuz i dont wanna tell you"
"i am not angry, i'm not in the mood to joke."
maybe i am not as looked upon by her like she is to me.
i'm not particularly pissed or disturbed. but it just doesnt feel right.
what do i go to school for? certainly not to look at the lecturer. mainly to meet my friends and to absorb at least a lil knowledge if the mood's there. the moment i arrive in class, the joke started, i joined in of cuz. if it were you, i think you'd have joined in too. i tot it'll make you smile.
i dunno larhx. i've been thinking abt it. my heart has been aching since you spoke to me abt it. then you left just like that. i was disappointed to tears. plus there's something going on on your side but the refusal to disclose hurt me further.
i'm not complaining or whatsoever. neither am i angry cuz i think the person who have all rights to be angry isnt me.
i still love all of you like i always do. ((:
i know Mr Hubby isnt really happy with what have been happening. esp that i havent really recovered from
the big fight. but he's here for me. i know. and i'm lovin him. (:
canadian pizza-ed. isnt he great? haha envy mee. he loves me the most. ((:
so off i'm going to accompany my precious. so long~ tata~!! i love everyone!!~ =D
