Sunday, September 03, 2006 ; 11:56 AMY
I really wish you were here.
" I wanna stop loving you".
and thats it. Maybe chris's right. it takes time to have a couple who have broken up to friends, let alone like what we were in the past. i duno whether what he had said is true, he still loves me?? i dunno.. if it's true, then ya, i hafta leave him alone cuz he wanna forget me. if it's just a lie, then he has his reason for telling me so. maybe he really cannot wait to get rid of me. so thats his way of shoo-ing me away.
sometimes how i wish i were to stand and pee. if i were the guy in this situation, i will choose none. be single and sort out my feelings right before getting on. i mean, this will cause let hurt to others as well as myself, isnt it? idk. i'm not trying to say that he should give up on her now, but.. idk larhx. I AM NOT ALLOWED TO CARE ANYWAYS.
i cried non stop. cuz not only he doesnt want me anymore. baobei doesnt want me as well. she must be damn exhausted from all these. if i were her, i willtoo. but but.. urghx. i dunno lar. i cried so much, my illness got worse. i cannot stop sneezing and coughing now.
i was so tired from all the cryings. i fell asleep subconsciously while watching CARS with mummy. i cldnt take it after the first disc. went to sleep. i think was quite early larhx. 7 plus? idk, cant rem. and i slept all the way.. till 11 plus today. brother said i had a hangover. lols. i cant imagine i am such a good sleeper. haish.. maybe its the things that happen so suddenly, so swiftly, and things ending so fast. idk.. many things ar.. that my body can hardly take it.. thats why it demands a GREAT REST. i'm still feeling tired now.. how i wish i can sleep throughout and there is NO NEED TO WAKE UP. but my bladder and tummy was having a riot lar.. lolx. so no choice. i had to get up. think i shall be going back to bed later. prays that i will feel better. being sick really sucks. i'm on a date tmr.. please dont lemme fall sick..
and i should be going away, from EVERYTHING on tues, if not wed onwards. please dont be sick, so that i can be left alone, from a place where no one knows me.. THANKS.
