Friday, September 14, 2007 ; 5:57 PMY
I really wish you were here.
I'm sleepy. Super sleepy.
Slept at 7am. Just because of the bloody results I've gotten.
Sighs. And guess what? Woke up at 11 to get ready for my haircut appointment.
Michelle is chio man. lolx.
Great reccomendation! (x
The before-and-after photos demand
Before:
After:
Not much of a diff right. Cause I wanted to keep my length. (= But look at the sides and front! Look at the volume. AND THE LENGTH! at least 6 inches snipped off! ):
I looked super JAP at the salon, but bt the time i reach home to take these photos, the style not there nemore. ):
My new toy. (:
Mascara from O2!
I will recommend you after I try it, provided it's good. (:
I really wish you were here.
Results are supposedly out yesterday.
But SIM shut down the server, or there was some error or something. BK and myself comforted ourselves to say that they feel that there were too many failures, thus they're moderating the results. HA.
Work has been fun, cept for alil hiccups here and there. restless students, stonny ones, and the hyperactive ones.
Oh wells, thanks UC for that comforting call. It helped. But I dont think anything can change the current situation.
It's a fact that cannot be changed, it's not that I dowanna accept it.
And thanks B for.. ya, you know. (:
Neways,
I'm anticipating tmr's visit to the hair stylist! Wooo. At the same time, i fear larhx. Let's just hope it'll turn out great! (x
And I can't wait for the DAY. Hehs. And they refuse to lemme go to their secret party cause I'm not 21 yet. HURR! But Sis and I planned for me to whine and borrow the outfit from her if I succeed. WAHAHA.
I got my pay today! It's not alot, but, YAY!
Thanks LC for the treat to your first pay. (x
(=
The Dog Camwhore (:
Oh, and results out. Not good, but thankfully no sup paper(s). Sighs.
But, which means, i get two Sakae Sushi treats!! HAHAHAHA. WHEN WHEN my dears? *beams.
Sunday, September 09, 2007 ; 11:57 PMY
I really wish you were here.
I just went blog hopping, and I was really taken aback.
I was shocked for like 5 minutes.
I thought something happened to her, but soon then I realized she was talking about me.
Ermms. I think it's the way I blog, or I don't know. Whether or not they're gonna read my blog ever again.
I quote from my previous entry a few days back. Huge huge misunderstandings,
"24 bucks, gone just like that. No food entering into my tummy, no entertainment gained, nothing achieved, oh wells, at least I got home safely. First time in my 20 years of life. I've never spent more than 15 bucks even when I share. Now I'm spending 24 bucks ALONE. damn zai right. It's like from one side of Singapore to another."
I thought I told Chris about this? I told him that it was my cab fare that night. I wasn't saying that I din achieved or ate anything or no entertainment gained that night, I was talking about my cab fare! -_-
The dinner wasn't even 24 bucks what.. =.= Different perception arhx..
I swear I was talking about the CAB FARE alone.
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"I think I am not wrong at looking at things and judging how people feels towards me. It's getting up to my nerves, it probably goes the same to some of the rest of the people. Ha. Oh wells, thats why I said I'm happy to a certain extend that it's over. "
I'm not even talking about any of you. Do I have to say thing openly? -.- The people, are Alan's goddad and godbrother.
I quote from what they said about people with higher education, "This kind of people, you think you stand a chance to be with them? You're just their spare tyre... Bla bla bla.. They'll find a director or boss to be their future husbands.. bla bla blah.. " (BlaBlaBla=Worse comments)
So many of those I told this to, are super, duperly unhappy as well.
I'm suppose to be happy that we're through, isn't it?
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I din know not blogging in precise will lead to so much misunderstandings.
I don't expect the whole world to give in to me and do everything according to my schedule or whatsoever. It's just that it's tiring to be thinking of how do I get myself transported here and there, just to accomodate to the outings' timings and locations planned by you guys. Since I don't have a car, and most of your outings are going to drag to the middle of the night, I'd have to approach those peeps with a vehicle to confirm whether I can be sent to a place where it's convenient for me to get home, isn't it? If there isn't, I'd needa think of other ways, and if there isn't any way out, of course I can't turn up. You never know how much I'd love to, to ALL the outings.
Am I suppose to blame myself for living a part of Singapore where isn't near to any of you guys?
I don't even blame you guys. I was just trying to suggest places more centralised for everyone, and make the meetings, earlier?
These factors are never a problem in the past because haven't you realise all our outings are getting further and further, later and later? And I can't be cabbing home EVERYtime, I don't print money. That's why I can only turn up when I have the extra cash for cab.
I have ever went out with you guys and ended up being cashless to take a cab home and I'll just have to join you to Chai Chee, much as I don't want to. But I don't get to go to Chai Chee anymore... What do you expect me to do?
If you were the one staying away from any one with a vehicle, and you don't have money to take cab home every time, what will you do?
If any of you means nothing to me, will I go to the extent of preparing the appropriate amount of cash to cab myself home? If all of you means nothing to me, will I even bother writing this entry?
Will I be even starting to make YOUR gift, if I don't care about YOU.
I'm sensitive, by nature. Or it's the way I'm being brought up. But I have never really flared up to friends, unless I'm PMS-ing so badly that I don't even know what I'm doing, like today.
But I don't, and have never liked the idea of hiding any hard feelings inside and treat it like nothing. If no one were to take a first step to voice out, I always will. Since you chose not to respond to my initiative, then what can I do? I've never publicized whatever it was that you were mentioning. I wanted a solution, and when I don't know how to solve, I'll ask for help, from the appropriate persons. Apparently, I was surprised to know that there're more people who knows than the people I approached. Dunno why too.
I don't know how much help this post will do, when it's already been days, and it's only today that I read about it.
I'll probably, be ignored/blocked/anything if I were to approach you now.
I apologize for all these misunderstandings. I don't know what else I could say.
Take care, all of you.
Goodnights.
I really wish you were here.
I'm back. I think I'm crazy, really crazy. I really mean crazy.
I walked from Bedok to Lorong Ah Soo just now.
I took 2 hours.
Then my feet couldn't take it, so I cabbed home from Lorong Ah Soo. HA.
Don't ask me why I did that. Cause I don't really know too. I just felt like walking. I needed to know how determined I can be. Wells, nothing but a 2 hour-walk, I am.
On top of the walking, I din have anything for the whole day, not even a sip of water. I guess I could have walked home if I had some food.
All these walking reminded me of those time I had with S. We used to walk from one part of Singapore, to another. Sounds damn stupid, but those moments were super sweet. Throwing his bike aside to walk with me.
It also reminded me of those times with A. Where I'll run around Hougang to cool myself down after a quarrel.
Just as I were thinking of them, Q added me on msn! lolx. He told me that he got my msn cause he googled himself, and found our old SJAB website. My goodness. I really had a great laugh over those center-parting guys, and my stupid face. LOL. Chatting with him indeed reminded me of alotta pleasant + unpleasant stuff. Things he did to, and for me. How he protected me from Y.
HAHA. I may just go on and on and on.
Wells anyways, my cramps are getting better, after that long walk, but my heels are cracking even more. HA. And a lil worn out.
Thursday was "Rat-a-too-ee" and Ben&Jerry ice cream! (:
Friday was Julie sis's place with my nephews and nieces! They're cute, and just look at how much they've grown. Aww, how time flies. Din manage to take any pics cause my phone's cam is too lousy, I dowanna have lousy pictures of them uploaded lar. They're simply too cute to be ruined by the cam. HAHA.
Went ECP with em. Had a super long talk with MC bro-in-law. He brainwashed me. My goodness, I really felt my brain being washed and I had a terribly bad headache after that. So, to be or not to be? Sighs.
Went shopping at TM earlier, I bought a hell loads of stuff. Lil lil stuff actually. Bought serena's present. I just cant think of what I can make for her, so just bought it lor. Aiks.
Then it happened. Fuck it lar.
Saturday, September 08, 2007 ; 2:39 PMY
I really wish you were here.
Ouch.
The Cramps are killing me.
I wanted to blog, but the pain just came like that.
Not in the mood to anymore.
Till then.
PS: Hey!Gorgeous is going SIM on the 14th of september, HAHA.
Thursday, September 06, 2007 ; 12:15 AMY
I really wish you were here.
Ben & Jerry Ice Cream treat tomorrow. I can't wait (:
I so much can't wait that I'm craving for ice cream so much. I went to the freezer, and finished the tub of vanilla ice cream. (x
When I also had ice cream yesterday at Jowe's.
Owwww. Die, I think I'm going to cough like siao, HAHA.
Nevermind.. I love ice cream (:
The Rat movie tmr too. =) yays.
I wont be online for the next couple of days, cause I'm not coming home again!
Hehs. Bless me.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007 ; 3:39 PMY
I really wish you were here.
Really, I'm very pissed and angry and sad and everything negative.
Really.
I can't help it.
Damn you.
I really wish you were here.
24 bucks, gone just like that. No food entering into my tummy, no entertainment gained, nothing achieved, oh wells, at least I got home safely.
First time in my 20 years of life. I've never spent more than 15 bucks even when I share. Now I'm spending 24 bucks ALONE. damn zai right.
It's like from one side of Singapore to another. I saw Sungai Buloh (LOL reminds me of the game I played), I saw REPUBLIC POLY! then I saw Orchid Country Club, and then it was TPE!! TPE suddenly was gone!! But I saw Jalan Kayu (Phews!), and it was SENGKANG! (x then went past maxi's old house. and TADA! hougang. wooo. (: But. KAOS, there goes my hard core saving money plan.
Oh yas,
I still owe them the money for the dinner.
I think I am not wrong at looking at things and judging how people feels towards me. It's getting up to my nerves, it probably goes the same to some of the rest of the people. Ha. Oh wells, thats why I said I'm happy to a certain extend that it's over.
And I got to find out that I think I'm being blocked/deleted on msn by a person. Maybe I mean nothing to that person, but to me, a friend. I don't know. It's not that I care alot about this, but quite disappointed larhx. I din offend you / do anything wrong to you what. Sobs. Nevermind that.
I can't wait for my hair to be styled (: Special thanks to my Sister, The Great. (((x
I can't wait for the results to be out. XY & SL have sent out their resume ady. Hmms, so there's no need to wait to know that I've passed or not right, HAHA. Okays, I shall be a good gurl, and complete my resume tmr and send it out. (:
Monday, September 03, 2007 ; 3:28 PMY
I really wish you were here.
The weather is just nice for cuddling in bed.
But I'm not doing it.
I'm not even in the slightest mood to sleep.
He called yesterday when I was getting ready for bed.
He scolded, reprimanded, and shouted alot alot alot alot of things.
I guess his purpose was to make me guilty.
I quote,"You will regret, I assure you!" from him.
I begged him not to contact me again, do you know how hard it is to say that from my mouth? But I did.
One word of vulgarity came outta his mouth, and I hanged up.
I turned off my phone.
Then it never rang again.
Hopefully, I can recover and get it over peacefully now.
God Bless me, and everyone around.
A sidetrack from that, my mom ordered Macs for lunch for us! Hur, but it's still not here yet. I'm hungry ):
Sunday, September 02, 2007 ; 9:28 PMY
I really wish you were here.
I din know writing a resume is so time-consuming. I din know I've so those achievements. lolx. My resume is gonna be long!!! But I'm not done with it yet. Ha. Since I'm unable to send in my resumes yet, I shall laze at home and wait for people to ask me out. In the meantime, I've got a new resolution, erm, for the holidays:
I wanna gain 2 kg (:
Haha. Some of you may be whispering to yourself, "Wow, finally you know you have to gain weight!"
Others may go, "Shudup Maine!"
Oh wells, it's not that I don't want. The weight just won't increase! I lose weight much more faster than I gain. Really, I was weighing myself that day at Joyce's place and I lost 1.1kg, I mentioned right. Goodness, it must be the projects and presentations at that time. And I was ill and had exams last week, so I shall gain what I've lost, isn't it? Nono, I should gain MORE THAN what I've lost. Yupps.
It's my new aspiration, it's more difficult than scoring an A in the exams kies!
This struck my mind when I was dinnering with my family just now (Aren't you surprised I dine with my F-A-M-I-L-Y?).
I finished my plate of Ee Mee. Tried alil of my brother's deliciously delicious SanLao HorFun (it looks super white and tasteless, but it tasted better than horfun!), and my father din have appetite cause he's sick. So i finished 1/4 of his fried rice for him. I wasn't hungry already. But I thought I should start gaining weight, it's not always that I get to eat alot, and I don't have to pay for it! So I just gorged them. (:
Ah, save it if you wanna tell me that it's unhealthy and wanna tell me what's the correct way. I just wanna do it this way. HURR. I'm a haughty and unreasonable lady. (: [it runs in the blood]
But but I've good digestive system, I visited the loo once I reached home. Haha.
I'm going again, soon. I feel it. (x
And I should also include another very important aspiration. I should bring Minnie out more often, for I'm always too lazy to plus, she loves to bark at kids and... people with more 'tanned' skins. It's irritating to control her and it's unsightly to smack her in public. Sighs.
The new IKEA cataloge is out!! I see this orange sofa bed, ME LOVES IT ALOT!! I wanna move house, I wanna buy new furniture, I wanna have a new room, with new everything, with new decorations BY MYSELF! I wanna have a new environment.. Not necessarily actually, I love Hougang, with the MRT and bus interchange in a walking distance, and malls just one or a few bus stops away, and i don't know.
I just want to be somewhere, new. I'd even consider migrating. I wanna leave the happy memories and forget those unpleasant nightmares. I wanna meet NICE new people.
I wanna start drawing my room's floor plan!! SO FUN! No! I wanna draw MY HOUSE'S floor plan, hehs, lemme be the designer. (:
But they haven't found a PERFECT house to move in to, yet. So indecisive. TSK.
Apart from all these, I'm super bored at home. My laptop, switched on, I blogged (twice a day), chatted alill on msn with selected people, and then i just stare blankly at it, doing nothing.
I wanna go kBox to sing, I wanna go Zouk, I wanna have a BBQ, I wanna have fun outside, somewhere and spend the night out. Sighs. Oh ya, there's supposed to be a inter-DMS BBQ tmr, I don't think THEY are going, so I'm not either. Even if they are, I'm not. Dont ask me why.
I really think that staying at home day and night is driving me crazy, really.
I really wish you were here.
I was reading my friend's blog. I've been envying her ever since she got together with her current boyfriend. Cause he seems to be such a perfect person you can ever find on earth. Despite her being spoilt since young, she's got the most sporting and out-going character among any of my friends, she laid low and gives in so much to him. I wonder how she made it.
Some people just change for the better because of the word L.O.V.E, and some people can die for L.O.V.E, and others can just give up anything for the same thing.
And as I was catching up with another friend of mine, I realized so much that she's been through. No matter how much she fell in L.O.V.E with that guy, she doesn't give in to her emotions and think super rationally. And luckily for that, she didn't get so much hurt that she might.
If I were to be as strong and as understanding as my first friend, will things be different? If I were to have thought as rationally as my second friend, will there even be this much hurt I have experienced?
Why do gurls always be at the losing end? Why must gurls have the softest heart? Why does gurls have the easiest to beat weak points? TSK!
They didn't ask me to go on Tuesday, sighs. I feel so forgotten. Nevermind! Hmphs.
